Another day in my wonderful life.

Saturday Aug 17, 2013

This is going to be a slightly short post being I am going to try and be included in tonight's festivities. My daughter will be returning to our home state tomorrow morning, so today is the last day to be able to spend time with her until I move back, which is in a little over 4 months. My goal is to be back in our home state by Christmas.

Ok so being today is her last day here I was feeling quite horrible at work. Kept crying because I of course will miss her very much. Anyways, my family decided that they were going to take her to the children's museum today, which is the ONE thing I wanted to do with her this summer but had to wait for my mother. A decision I am now regretting. I called my family ALL of them, my brother, my sister, my mother and my stepdad, to tell them I will leave work early they just need to pick me up when they are going, so that I can be included in something that was important for mommy daughter.

Of course NO one decided they would answer my calls or texts. And I am not to be pissed about this. Now, some of you might ask me why I didn't just take the day off to begin with, right? Well I was faced with a dilemma, one I now again regret. I could have gone to work and hope that my family would be great enough to involve me and pick me up so I can get SOME time in at work, or take the day off and have the non stop bitching from my mom about me missing work.

Now, they are heading to one of my girls favorite places, she calls it "the kids casino". Joys of Vegas. But again I am not going to get to go because there is not enough room in the car because it's important that others go instead of me. The point that I need to pack her things and reorganize her toys here has been made clear. I am to prepare her things to leave instead of being allowed to spend her last night enjoying her time.

I know I could have a fit start a fight and DEMAND to be involved but there is absolutely no point in this because it will get nothing done. I know that it's not going to be long until I am back with her permanently, and little do they know they(mostly my mother and stepdad) will not be seeing her much if not ever again, so I should let them have this time with her. She has been used to not being around my family much because of the distance so this will not be a issue. I am sure she will ask like once a year or so but I might allow her to see them ONCE a year, MAYBE.

Ok done for today. Going to get things ready for her tomorrow morning and try not to cry while I do so. Looking on the positive side, I get to sing my angel to sleep one more night, and the next time I get to do so will be in our OWN home again.